Me, MYSeLF & i…

There’s a certain of time that got you thinking about things… and this was my time.

Recently, I had a row of fights with this person at the office. Cold war mostly. She’s not really that helpful, tho her duties was actually to help me out. Day in and day out, I’m beginning to despise her more. Wishing that the day will pass by faster so that she’ll leave sooner.

No such luck tho.

Today, I caught her copying documents, into her pen-drive. Copying without permission is the same as stealing, is it not? Of course, she had innocently state that she was going to use it as reference, but I understand the gravity of the situation - the information of clients were on the documents that she had copied.

In the instant, I had required her to delete the things she had copied. Tomorrow will be her last day. Maybe I should sport-check her pen-drive before she leaves.

Go to http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx to try it out.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

At a point, I was bored with friendster. Now, I need some me time and not so much of being focused on or playing dome application. Tho, I don’t really know how long I’ll stay in this place call Friendster.

A lot had happened throughout my absence of blogging here. The most recent is me turning 27 and Shahril had actually planned and reserved a nice lunch surprise. I know it was going to be lunch… but I had no idea and no clue where we were suppose to have our lunch. I really felt like a person blindfolded and being kidnapped. In the car, I kept on going “Are we there yet?” in the most uttering annoyance so that he would give. He kept it to himself til we made it through the gates.

We had lunch-buffet at Menara KL. Awww… he had actually reserved a spot too. Not the kind that walks in the restaurant. I’m so surprised and happy at the same time.

You’d think he stops there… he actually made the birthdday surprise too. Awww… I am seriously melting like the chocolate on my cake.

Well… that’s about it on my pre-birthday celebration. As for my actual celebration, it was a nice dinner with family, Shahril and Farah Kamal. Very nice and cozy.

Other randomness:-

1) I have switched law firm to DGK. I’m more in control there. Still fresh but they allow me to roam in control. More family oriented.

2) Afzan got married.

3) Lost and loose touch with pretty much the rest of the world.

4) I love to sleep nowadays. Shocking, I know. I’m shocked too.

5) I am hungry all the time too. Another shocking thing kan…

6) I get annoyed easily. Patience has its level. If you have crossed it, it takes a MIRACLE to make me like you again. Somehow, I pity you tho at times.

7) Despite all that, I am still Sarah. I have a blog, but I change the address all the time.

Utter bliss that I am in this office… for a few blissful reasons :-

1) It’s really… and I mean REALLY close to my home. I could just go home IF I choose to do so at lunch time.

2) The boss is a sweetie pie. They don’t have stress in this office. Honest.

3) I am at the present moment NOT bogged down with work as much. Which is good… it gives me a sense of getting use to working life once more.

On other stories… I’m starting to get use to the ways of the office. I may never want to leave. Haha…

I’m getting older… just one more Saturday (not including the actual day)!

26. Here I come.

It’s not a normal thing for me not to be online… but I’ve no longer able to manage all the websites that I joined… what more blogging. I’ve neglected mostly everything but it’s not because I don’t have the time; I’m caught up with just ONE application; which for the life of me I don’t understand why is so appealing to me; Fighters’ Club on Facebook.

I know.. I know.. it’s JUST an application. But I find it amusing to "jump" and read all the comments on people who "jumps". It’s also interesting how powerful certain groups are… to which I’m also a member of one geng.

It’s not funny when it feels like an obligation sometimes. But, it’s still something to kill my time.

Tapikan… now, I can only online at night. Siang-siang I’m off to the office. Yes… I’ve started again. Not much work to do yet… just going through files and PRAY that the firm gets a new SPA file so that I can start and be assisted on.

It’s a no brainer that now I’m in the office chit-chatting with people. Instead of chatting on YM or MSN… or even sms-ing people… I’m actually interacting. Better than nothing kan?

Seriously I shouldn’t sound so negative, but like my friend said - "Sarah, when can you accept that you’re to enjoy all this while it last? You’re a workaholic"

Hehe.. That I am, gurl. That I am.

Hence… now the late night blogging. Gosh, I’ll be so tired at work tomorrow. Ahh.. nevermind.

Today marks a new year in the Hijrah Calender. It’s a vast difference from the New Year 2008. It’s a New Year where there was a Hijrah for Muslims 1429 years ago. It was a new beginning for all the Muslims in the world at that point of time.

It’s a new beginning.

…and now 1429 years later, it’s still a new beginning for some.

Wake up from your slumber and smell the roses. Nothing sticks forever. Everything changes. Don’t get too comfortable for things will change.

A new beginning for a lot.

Last 22nd December 07… Chenta hatiku turn 28. Old and wise.. but this year he turned 28 without me around.

Where was I?

Well… for one thing, I was busy with other catching up session.

I guess… when it’s this long and wide, a birthday is just a birthday, kan Sayang? We’ll celebrate some other time.

Mwahs…

Happy Birthday Sayang.

This year… I think I’ll approach towards closing 2007 in a survey. Then again, I might just do a blog at the very last day, who knows laa kan?

Here goes…

My Year in 2007
As 2007 comes to an end……..

1) Where did you begin 2007?
…at Spicy Hartamas, with Juan and Azie. A little drama back then with the gurls on Juan’s hp, kan Azie. Had a good time. Chenta Hati had chose to do overtime at Digi. But then later was sent back home. Should’ve just lepak with me, kan Sayang?

2) What was your status on Valentine’s Day?
taken… for 3 years already.

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
I was learning the ropes of lawyer-ing. That was it mostly… nothing much of school.

4) How did you earn your money?
Pupilage allowances… ohh and FlyFm contests.. haha.

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
time and time again. I was admitted recently. Visited some people in the hospital too…

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
not that i recall this year.

7) Where did you go on vacation?
SABAH… and I loved every second of it.

What did you purchase that was over $1000?
medicines

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
yes… and the invitations keeps on pouring til the end of the year.

Lets name some, shall we…
Sri and Azrain
Madihah
Nur Najwa
Nur Zalma
Imee
Yuhana Ayu
Radzlan
Muna
Nazim and Abai
Sarah Khalilah

Can’t recall more…

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
yes.

12) Did you move anywhere?
nope. still here. no change of place. no change of heart

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
Aplenty to me…

F1 Race
Boys II Men
Gwen Stefani
Micheal Learns to Rock
P. Ramlee the musical
Flyanniversary! VVIP passes baby!!

15) Are you registered to vote?
since 2000

16) Who did you want to win Big Brother?
don’t even know the show…

17) Where do you live now?
kl

18) Describe your birthday?
… a nice dinner with Nadia and Chenta Hati at Dome… before I caught a movie with Chenta Hati. It was simple yet enough for me.

Of course… there was that dress-as-your-fav-artist thing the next day at home. Tee Hee.. that was a success, somewhat

19) What’s one thing you thought you’d never do but did in 2007?
hmm… forgiving people. I just seem to be very generous in that department. Don’t like it actually, but I do it anyway… people make mistakes, I guess.

20) What has been your favorite moment?
… I must say it’s the time when Chenta Hati was cornered by his own family. Tee hee.. I love the feelin’. Sorry Sayang… I was there to give Big Apple Donuts je to Auntie Su. Mana lak tau they nak corner macam tuh.

21) What’s something you learned about yourself?
I have an outrages temper.

22) Any new additions to your family?
nope.

23.) What was your worst month?
… hmm. The transition of working in the heart of KL. Stress sangat that time… nothing seems to be going right. End of July, the start of August.

24.) What music will you remember 2007 by?
No one - Alicia Keys.
Lelaki Ini - Anuar Zain

25) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
I don’t drink.

26) Made new friends?
ahaks.. yup. Won’t dwell in details… but very interesting and stimulating conversations/messages.

27) New best friend?
nope. sticking with the old ones. I love them to bits.

28) Favorite Night out?
… that impromptu up to Genting for Boys II Men concert. It was something interestingly enough romantic.

REPOST as "My Year in 2007"

Taking a break from the mass media - with freedom of speech - and trying to focus on own well being for the moment. Call me selfish, but I had enough. Too much anger and frustration is stressful… and being stressed out about situations that is slow at change (if it does change) is not a good thing at the moment. My whole balance and trying to get-well is striving and hanging in the balance of NOT being stress.

Now… if only I can stop myself from opening/reading stories about BAR Malaysia and all the other rallies. Self-discipline to betterment. Gosh.. it’s not as easy you know. The news is everywhere… you can’t really brush off things that’s thrown to your face. Well, you can… but I can’t. Sigh. I have to. Arrggghh… even that is creating stress. Maybe I should just read and try to control my frustrations into something productive?

Anyways…  I’m feeling better than before. The short admission into the hospital did a world of good. Gave me a sorta calmness that I was lacking. Somehow, my body was under "fire" that I can’t explain. It’s not exactly "hot" but it’s like very… uneasy. Which is totally unexplainable since I JUST got to go on a holiday to a beautiful place call Sabah.

Of course, the drugs that they pumped into me had also given the effect of calm and serenity. It wasn’t sleeping pills or stress pills… it’s a procedure. I was suppose to undergo this procedure that took out all my immune system, drain it out if you must, and then I was to be put on this new immune system called - Immunoglobin. However, due to the fact that I had distorted veins, after 3 times trying to get that catheter in my thighs (some sort of dialysis procedure-like), they abandoned that idea and just gave me this 3 days course of Immunoglobin. Yup… I have some foreign immune to help kill my own immune system that’s going crazy.

That’s SLE for you.

So, at current position… I’m all running out of ideas and things to do at home. I came back last Friday with sleep. Lotsa of them. I’m trying not to dwell so much in them as they are very addictive. Who knows when I’ll actually start working again, and that’s when this sleep thing will be stuck in my mind. Sluggish brain of mine I have now.

I am however thinking of resolutions for 2008… and also recapping of what happened in 2007.

Blogging about it will be inevitable. I am an ardent blogger of wrapping up the year.. and welcoming the new year.

Sleep… i think i’ll do that now. Such a nice weather too.

"Sarah, you got 0.57 protein leakage and your albumin has dropped to 29. This is a full blown relapsed. We have to start you back on Metaprad (steroid injections)… and you have to come back tomorrow and Sunday for Metaprad. Selama ni, your stability was at 0.01 and albumin count at 42.

Did something happened? Are you stressed? Over-worked?"

A conversation with my doctor today, Dr. Rozita. After that statement of full blown relapse, I kinda gone into my "happy place", which ironically was very sad.

I had anticipated this to happen actually… and God loves me to continuously make me stay in this world to actually let me suffer with infections after operation that He brought forward my operation.

Had I done my operation in this condition, it would have been a tougher recovery with possible late wound healing and terrible infections!

Funny… how I felt when she said this was a full blown relapse. Nothing funny… but I never thought I would brake down and cry as when they diagnosed I was with kidney failure 3 years back.

Funny how my parents, especially mum, is acting strong about it… when right after the diagnose she is now ill with flu and cough.

So… no operation… and now trying to re-stabilize my condition.

"Sarah… full blown relapse…"

Ouh… and funny that Richard had to call about a file. I can recall the file… the utmost "non-difficult" file there is. But the doctors were there to consult on my medication pills (which costs RM7.90 a pill).

I feel like giving up… but emotionally, there’s so many people counting on me getting well. One day at a time again I guess…

Honestly, I am trying to be positive… but somewhere in my mind and body is not all for being positive.

Sarah… you got full blown relapse.

La la la la…