I used to think that my life was a bore.
Until I found you to share it with…
I used to think that money is everything.
Until I found you to spend my time with… minus the money.
I used to think I was just cursed.
Until you showed me that what I thought was just crap.
Shahril, I used to think I’d never fall in love again,
Until you literally showed up in front of my gate…
walking from your home.
1st April, 2006.
A date I thought I’d forget by now.
A date I thought I won’t reminisce… to my past.
I thought, I’ve actually substitute this date with… 23rd October, 2003.
But, why am I still reminded of this date?
1st April, 1995…
A date I had started a joke with someone.
I was Form 1 back then.. so long time ago.
It’s already 11 years now; since that date…
You, now happy with your girl.
Me happy with my boy.
But, why are memories reminded on this date?
Maybe not for you… but for me.
I never thought things would end up this way.
We had such dreams back then…
foolish for me to think it would’ve worked.
foolish to think that you were my only.
1st April, of any year…
A date everyone would try to play "pranks" on others
But my prank in 1995 - turned into a relationship…
Now, I smile alone thinking.. the prank wasn’t funny.
Scar for life.
The prank in the end backfired…
and i’m scar-ed.
Aduh.. that was a long time ago..
why am I still reminiscing?
yumss.. i love this..
nothing beats my choice for coffee… sigh
nothing but the company i had laa… thank you sayang.
*mine on the left..*
something i took from my boyfriend’s bulletin… you know what, sayang.. if daddy tau nih mesti dia bengang 
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Untuk kegunaan masa depan bagi mereka yang ingin menambah zuriat….
Pilihan nama Jawa yang bagus-bagus diperturunkan…eloklah guna nama ini untuk anak…
Pilihlah yang anda berkenan:-
Pandai tanam bunga, diberikan nama -
Rosman.
Pandai membaiki kereta, namakan -
Karman
Sedang dalam golf - Parman
Pandai dalam penulisan - Suratman
Gagah perkasa - Suparman
Boleh mendengar sambil berjalan - Wakiman
Selalu bertanya - Azman (loghat jawa bunyi Asman)
Pandai buat kuih - Paiman
Pakar jualan - Salman
Pakar pasal alam sekitar - JASman (Jab. Alam Sekitar)
Pandai melukis, tulis sajak, nyanyi lagu - Saniman
Doktor gigi - Sugiman
Supaya cepat naik pangkat - Yasman
Bakal kaki pukul dan dera orang - Deraman
Yang ada darah Bengali - Manbai
Pandai mengatur skim cepat kaya - Pakman (Te’Lo)
Mat rock - Rokman
Jadi polis trafik - Saman
Pakar kunci - Lokman
Baik budi pekerti - Budiman
Ada lagi… .
Buat kerja ala kadar - A. Kadarisman
Suka bagi orang susah - Sukarman
Suka mengada-ngada - Ngadiman
Dua alam - Herman
Paling tak guna - Koman
Selalu sakit - Deman
Kalau yang kuat berlawan - Ultraman
Yang suka main daun terup poker - Pokerman
Tambahan : - kalau nama anda adalah salah satu dari yang di atas; Sah! Anda
adalah seorang jawa!… muahahaaaaaaaaa
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kureng betul dia nih… my dad jawa
4 YEARS AGO
How old were you?: 20
Where did you go to school?: matriculation
Where did you work?: various places… mostly MpH.. (4 years ago maa..)
Where did you live?: devil-ish *sub* city
How was your hair style?: VERY long
Did you wear braces?: nopes
Did you wear glasses?: nopes
Who was your best friend?: 4 years ago? hmm.. i jump around.. my roomates - Areej, Ina.. and of course Fitrah Nazri
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend: back then? hmm… thou shalt not mention anymore
Who was your celebrity crush? ahaa… not to into for celebs bck then..
Who was your school crush?: a plenty bck then..
How many tattoos did you have?: nopes
how many piercings did you have? : my ears
What was your favorite band?: dulu? ntahlaa.. tak ingat
What was your worst fear?: being alone
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: no.
Had you gotten drunk or high yet? never drunk… high? not on drugs though..
Had you driven yet? nopes.. *insert blush here*
Had you been to a real party yet?: hmm… is there a "fake" party?
Had your heart been broken? yes
LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!
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How old are you?: 24
Where do you go to school?: IIUM
Where do you live?: still ttdi
Where do you hang out?: tempat where we can pasang lagu Alleycats!
How is your hair style?: long.. and curlier..
Do you have braces?: nopes
Do you wear glasses?: still nopes.
Who is your celebrity crush/s?: still can’t think of any
Who is your regular-person crush?: ahaha… adalaaaaa…
How many tattoos do you have?: it would be lovely if i said i have one, kan?
How many piercings do you have?: still those at my ears
What is your favorite band/artist?: hmm… ntah
What is your biggest fear?: loosing my sanity..
Do you work: not yet
Who is your best friend?: now? i got best anak-anaks… ahaha.. too many other best friends to mention.. but you know who you are!!
Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: yes. since i was a kid. masa kecik pelik what my dad is doing.. huffing and puffing… tried it and hated it. now, only when i have to… which is never.
Have you gotten drunk or high yet?: neither… still
Have you been to a real party?: again i ask, "what’s a fake party?"
Has your heart been broken?: a plenty…
I can’t believe it… this feels like when I was in high school, a time when internet connection was just a thing that is not obtainable by my family… What did we do for internet connection? Cyber cafes…
A lot has changed since then.. but, sadly… even with the fastest broadband connection; their repairing time takes such a long time!
My internet connection died last Friday. Idilly I made my report and they said, 24- 48 working hours… Ok. Fine. That means no connection over the weekend. At first, it didn’t bother me because I had an exam on that Saturday itself… *btw, dah 3 papers down… 3 more to go.. ALL THREE PAPER i did NOT finish the booklet!! "It’s the quality that matters, not quantity…" I hope so…*
Anyways, since there wasn’t internet connection, I have ventured to the life of television. I even found out a certain function for a certain programme that had led me to having cool true tones on my phone…
Well, other than that, I’ve been trying to win that MASH for CASH in flyfm.. haha.. there’s a weird and funny story to that too.
Clues for the game is located somewhere unobtainable… where? YES.. online!
Aduh…
Other than that, I’m sure plenty have suspected I had retreated from the internet world because of exams. Are you kidding me people? Do you not know me by now??
Currently, I’m still with no connection. I’m taking a break from studying and going online in a cozy restaurant-book-cafe in Damansara Perdana. With who? My supportive boyfriend and my "daughter". *both tengah baca magazine and force me to go online…*
all because i whine at home that I want the internet connection. Well, now I’m forcing myself to blog til this place closes.
My carrymarks for all my 6 subjects.. fairly well than expected. Although two things that gotten me annoyed…
MY PP FILE HILANG! and it seems as though my CP FILE HILANG jugak!
Sigh.. I curse those who took what that doesn’t belong to them. On behalf of myself, and also on behalf of those that got their file stolen.. especially Melati. I hope they do graduate, but when they have kids, they kids punya hardwork not recognized or got lost.
But hahahaha to that person who took my file. The marks dah record. Sir Bahar called me tadi and told that my marks is 25 over 30! HAH… padan muka whoever who stole my file. Yours any higher than mine ker?? jealous freak.. or admire? ntahlah..
Aduh.. they’re gonne close.. til my internet connection lives again, i’ll type.
~thankx ayang & Nad ~
In and out of relationships…. who better to ramble on this thing other than the person who experiance the matter him or herself.
Sigh… I didn’t think it would matter, but… it’s getting to me.
An old friend of mine got married two weeks ago. This friend was someone who I had set my foot down to downright say "no" to a relationship… all in the name of him being good buddies with my ex boyfriend.
I know there’s no rule that you cannot date or have a relationship with your ex’s bestfriend, but for me it’s weird if I did do that. I guess that’s why I never considered going out with him as a "date" but rather a casual outing. Honestly, it was a date… i refused to acknowledge it though.
Why am i reminiscing?
Simple, he got married. Although we never did be more than friends, but memories that creeped in is inevitable. Suddenly, I was reminded of our little bet in "Carrefour" during the last worldcup season. I was reminded about our little conversation and how I politely refused his companionship. Secretly I was hating the fact that he had a new girlfriend after that, but… I gave a happy outlook.
How do you start a relationship with your ex’s bestfriend? The answer that obvious for me was : you don’t start anything… Now that he is married, I wonder if I had actually made a wrong move.
Presently, to my ability and knowledge, I think that I’ve made a good move. I don’t think the outcome of me being with him would actually do any good. My parents would despise the fact that he is in connection with my ex, and I’d have a dilemma of defending him with my mom to rebut what my mom says and thinks. Proving her wrong is a difficult task. After all, she’s all wise woman. Her advices and decisions (although much opposed by me) are well respected.
Futhermore, he is best friends with my ex. I wouldn’t want to be the reason they grow apart. I’m glad to know that after all these years, they are still good friends. At least, I didn’t do anything wrong there. I didn’t destroy a bond of two friends, eventhough my relationship with my ex was disasterous…
We both had grew apart along the way, but yesterday’s sms session was making me smile again. It was nice to see him happy in pictures….
I thank God he found happiness.
and… I thank God that Shahril understands me pretty well to the extend of not being jealous when I type out this blog. I’ve told Shahril all he needs to know. Reading this would only amount to repeatition… but I needed to blog it up.
For the last time of my life, I’m gonna relax this weekend… Gonna have a day of being lazy and a day to watch movies…
I wanna relax…
Not that I’ve not been relaxing all this while. But, this time, I really wanna.
I’m emptying everything from my head to have enough space to understand all the rest of my subjects… gonna do a Rawls "Beyond the veil of ignorance" but on my studying… not drafting any laws. *guess who thought me that Rawls thing? yes… Dr. Iqbal*
Where’s my darling? He’s out with his friends… lepakking at Mutiara.
*sigh*
guess what?
EXAMS next SATURDAY!!!
brr… and i’m not scared…
I’m scared that I’m not scared… am i making sense?
To those who follows Desperate Housewives or DH… would probably know what I’m about to say.
Stop reading right now if you haven’t watched any of the season 2 episodes.
On to my ramblings now…
Remember the earlier episodes in Season 1 of Bree’s family. A time when Rex was alive. A time where a crime was committed by Bree’s only son; the hit and run of Mrs Solis.
Bree tried her hardest to make her conscience away by allowing the evidence be stolen in an unfriendly neighbourhood. Gabrielle’s elicite affair with the gardener was kept to rest for the time being as the poor Mrs. Solis dies of the hit and run.
Now… in season 2, Rex died. There’s no more men in the house to take care of Bree’s juvenile delinquint. He turned gay by the way… and, above all, he hates his mother and swears to make her life miserable.
Question : Wouldn’t it better if Bree had allowed the cops to handle the kid?
But mom is always protective over their child.
Just a thought.
These past days has been hectic. An emotional roller coaster, if you must put it in anyway possible. Topped off with the unwanted worm that had attacked the pc.
Honestly, I thought I was going to reformat the whole enchilada on the weekends. But, I couldn’t stand the throbbing pain this pc must be going through. So, I had a process of burning all the songs and video clips and all the important documents into CDs as backup.
Thankfully, my sister had already backed up her files. So, it was left to me to be the doctor to this pc.
As I was burning all my material into CDs… I checked my Yahoo Messenger’s message archives. It turned out, I didn’t save conversations for a month. The WHOLE month of February… I decided, screw it. I don’t care anymore.
Then, as I was trying to log off, a number of people buzzed me. As the saying goes, when you’re in a hurry, that’s the time something slows you down.
But, of course… I didn’t mind. And my true friends who understands that I’m in a rut, would automatically back off. Note, true friends…
There’s ONE PERSON, I would only say as "A". "A" was angry at someone… showed me some photos. *Even after I’ve said I’m having worms in my pc* "A"’s solution was for me to reformat. Yes, that was what I was doing. But, "A" continued to pester me.
I get that your relationship with that person was for 4 years; it IS not fair that the other person brake it off just like that. And I know you as the popping pills when there’s a problem person, coz I saw you do it my self. BUT GROW UP.
Don’t make jokes like, "Nanti, kalau dia kahwin, aku nak langgar anak dia… lepas tuh, biar dua2 jadi gila and aku langgar dua2 sekali…"
How can I take that as a joke when I knw your history… Even if nak berdendam, janganlah sampai kata nak langgar anak orang. Are you that heartless to make such idiotic joke like that?
Leave the freaking family to be alone.
So what if "B" has another person? What’s your problem…? MOVE ON BITCH. He’s not the only person in this world! There ARE OTHERS who would care for you and love you. Don’t you have pride?? or have you totally lost your self-worth.
I don’t know if this person is reading my blog… but if you are, let me tell you something. Dah tahu that person is like that, kenapa nak buang masa and energy sakit hati lagi? It makes you look bad.
Please laa… you know I myself not well, go and find some other punching bag to make idiotic jokes like that.
"Whatever la Sarah" <— THAT ANNOYED ME!
"I didn’t want you take it seriously" ; well, knowing that YOU POPPED PILLS masa gaduh dulu.. how would I know if you were being serious or joking. Even I don’t go joking nak bunuh orang… Ko nih.. You need a therapist.. I think you’ve gone insane.
Don’t bother me anymore. Your problem is nothing compared to my problem. Get the fucking off my face. I don’t need to be people’s ego booster (pinjam ayat ya Nad).
