Me, MYSeLF & i…

… sometimes you just never know.

I slept VERY late the night before. My "abang"
came over. After years of being in USA studying, he seems to have
forgotten how Malaysian entertainment was. He had a dose of Akademi
Fantasia. I guess, I’m not as cool of a western like he is… or our
mutual fren that came over.

He
and our fren balik at about 11:30pm. Not that late… but I was a
little hyper from Nescafe + Milo 3in1 (my recipe). I was able to make
him suffer watching AF4. But, I truly enjoyed the fact he came by. It
was definitely nice.

It was also great that he came by… I got
to sneak in my boyfriend for a quick hug and more hugs outside. I know
things are not as peechy as it is suppose to be… but if I was able to
keep things under wraps for years with a certain someone dulu.. apa
bezanya with this one?

Well,
my time would be wasted if at the end we’re not together… but at
least he made me happy. That to me is good enough. I HAVE MADE MY
DECISION. I am sticking around.

Anyways… back to today.

I
got a very early sms in the morning. The weird thing was, I was
thinking of my dear darling Nadia as I woke up. My handphone was on
silent and I had switched off the vibration… so there was NO WAY I
could’ve known she was the one to sms. Tapi, I still woke up
nonetheless and checked my handphone. My shock was to be waking up
thinking of Nadia and getting sms from her.

Impromptu plan as usual… tapi, sentiasa best.

We were both high. Terlampau high kots… sigh.

Picked me up.. went to KL send off another anak to work… went to have lunch at our fav McD.

…anak2 ku…

…my other anak & me…

Went to OU. Bought lots of stuff…

For once I didn’t buy books… I pampered myself with Dior Addict. (cheh.. mcm sudah kerja kan?) Then, got myself and impromptu Germany Worldcup baju… two items in TopShop. Aduh.. if I wasn’t careful, I would’ve bought myself a camera Cybershot Sony. hehehe… aiyaaak.

Overall,
had fun. Watched Gol&Gincu with Nad at home. Chat with Idan and
Azie. Having sore feet&throat, and cannot sleep eyes… I swear
I’ll be a panda soon!

I had fun Nad… thank you for such a lovely and great time out! Me seronok bah…

…in months with friends.

This was on Saturday, 22nd July 2006.

…I went into the habit of going in Hollywood Stock Exchange….
yet again! I know I shouldn’t. It’s a useless site with the ability to
make one person "invest" virtual money and real time unneccessarily.

I
started to enter the realm of Virtual Stock Exchange for this movie
site 7 years ago… yes, during my form 5. It was introduced to me by a
friend who is very brainy.. (more brainy than me) She had interesting
investment scheme to get herself on top. Although, I don’t really know
if she’s still checking out this site that she had introduced to me to,
but I know she’d probably be investing real money in real shares and
company profiles and making real profits. Me, I’m stuck in the virtual
world.

How does this site work? It’s a site that would be
handing you free virtual money for you to invest in the profiles that
is featured in the site. What profiles?

MOVIE PROFILES and STARBONDS and so on.. everything and anything to do with the movie entertainment of HOLLYWOOD.

First
time users might be a little overwhelm by the many choices… Quick
tip, you go to "Lauch the Ticker" on the left column of the page. There
will be a popup and a "ticker" be launched. There names of movies going
up and down and non movers be moving along the ticker. Name of stars
would also appear to do the same. Prices and percentage of changes will
also be featured. Easy ain’t it?

What makes ME hooked to this site?

1.
It’s a virtual investment in movie/star profile shares… It makes me
feel rich IF I gain the shares I buy or gain when I short a share.
2. It features REAL movie profiles and star profiles. In here, everything and anything that is being in Concept, Production, Wrap, Release
stages of movies would be featured. (Hence the reason I know some
movies BEFORE it comes out in the local cinemas or even Hallywood
cinemas)
3. Plain and simple reason… I love watching movies.

Caution to those who wanna try this site out…

It
is addictive if you’re a dreamer of investing and also those who loves
movies. But, if you guys do decide to open an account and gain free
money to invest virtually, feel free to add my username as the
recommender "Love349" (in that sequence of big letter and small
letter). This would make you connected to me and we will be able to
monitor each other’s standing.

Join laa people… but ONLY if you’re really sure. Don’t say I didn’t warn you!

Friendster horoscope :

…WorldCup. The second half
yesterday was so different from what the first half was potrayed.
Zidane, the guy who had made the penalty at the 7th minute had was sent
off for head butting Marco Materazzi.

The Italians won the Cup. Zidane was sent off with red card and so he
was banned from actually receiving the second place medals. It was as
though he didn’t play the final game.

My boyfriend was emotionally damaged. He even wrote a blog down. It was
like a time bomb that had exploded. (just because France kalah…) He
didn’t even want to talk to me when I called. He did say sorry and he
doesn’t want to talk. I know that his anger wasn’t directed to me. For
that, I have to understand.

But… it’s a game. He has always told me that. He was the one who kept
on trying to cool me down when a certain someone sent me a very
annoying sms when Rooney was sent off. How can a person who tells me
that this thing is JUST a game be so emotionally damaged of what
happened.

Positive side of his team…
1. masuk finals.
2. got a real red card… not a controversial one.
3. France lost was at penalty shoot out. Not during extra time. Even with 10 men.

The team I supported? Didn’t make it to the finals. Not even the
3rd/4th placing. Were badly screwed over by a bunch of acting players.
The captain was too injured to play and got off the field.

Although, France was not my first pick (or second actually), but I had
rooted for it too. Not because my boyfriend was rooting for the team. I
had hoped for it to win. But, IF England was at the finals, and a
penalty shoot out was in order, I think I’ll have nightmares over the
shoot out Just as I did when I was in form 4. I think, no no… I know
that that would be the only thing I have…nightmares.

Unless someone tickles me the wrong way, I don’t think I’m going to be
in a bad mood. I know I am capable of being in a bad mood… if someone
kacau my mood that is.

Did I kacau that someone’s mood the whole night? No. I knew how it
would be like if France had lost. I didn’t return an sms in return of
what happened to Zidane to that certain someone. I have respect for the
players and also the supporters… but, why can’t the person I mix with
stop giving me crap when I support a different team.

Ouhhh… for those wanting to know what the person sms to me… it was
"HIDUP ROONEY!!!…HAHA.." (right after Rooney was shown the red card.)
I was already in a pissed mood as it was and wanted to talk to someone
about it and felt really sad over it. Tak sempat I sms or call,
something else made me angry and sad. Angry because this person is
close to me but has no respect over me being an England supporter. Just
because Rooney is a Manchester United player, he felt it was nice to
give me that tease. I was also sad because I realized that I had no one
to turn to when Rooney got sent off. No one to talk to about my grieve.
If that person who is so close to me sms as such, I felt all hopes were
lost.

But, did I return the favour to that person when Zidane was sent off?
No. I respect the player even if he doesn’t play for Manchester United
club….and I respect the supporter.

Why I am going on and on about this incident? Because it hurts to know
that in this worldcup season I have actually learned a little more
about someone who is close to me and I don’t like. And… I found out
that my boyfriend is actually emotionally damaged over his team’s lost
in the finals… despite the frequent saying; "It’s just a game,
sayang…"

Doesn’t feel just a game now to you, does it sayang?

…have the immune system to
fight flu or simple sore throat like the rest. Hence it takes a longer
time to heal and plenty more rests to take. In some cases, it can be
fatal

That’s the answer for people who have supressed immune system; like me. The original question that was formulating in my head :

"How does an immune supress patient gets well from a flu and simple
sore throat as fast as the rest normal healthy non immune supressed
people?"

Immune system is created by God to help combat anything that might be
harmful to the body. However, there are people who suffers from immune
system that has gone bad. Instead of fighting diseases, the immune
system terminates another immune system and starts to destroy the
organs inside the body. Seems crazy and very imaginative, right?

But.. in reality this is what the scientists call as Auto-Immune
Disease. One of the branches of this type of disease is Lupus… or
Sytemic Lupus Erythamathosus (SLE).

And… I have this chronic illness. My immune system goes haywire.
That’s why it is being supressed (another word for killed to a minimum
level).

So… now I wanna tell you something else. If you guys have cough,
flu.. or even the most simplest thing like sore throat, don’t be a baby
and whine all day. Be thankful you have only that. The worst case
scenario is that you have to live with this for a maximum of 2 weeks.
You guys punya immune system is in tact to fight and combat the
bacterias and viruses that’s attacking your body.

Me? I’m immune supressed. Pagi2 makan steroids to supress the immune.
If I don’t, SLE might make its comeback. So, I’m more prone to other
penyakit like flu and cough… but my healing rate is definitely more
than 2 weeks. Not enough antibodies to fight back these outside agents.

Did I mention that I’m having running/blocked nose and a real bad case of sore throat right now? *Sigh*