Me, MYSeLF & i…

…KL streets in the beginning of the morning up to the whole afternoon. Trying my luck to finish up everything that is to be done today, with much hope that the things that need settling be settled.

To much disssapointment, that couldn’t be done. Like everything in my life, it has its twist. The last 3 years, I thought I’d be lucky to be healthy but skinny (to much envy to many)… not aparently so in the days to come back then when I discovered I had LUPUS.

There’s things which are beyond my control, and only HE knows why such test of time and patience is upon me… but I have to believe that HE has more things planned for me and that HE loves me enough to test me to this level.

As I was talking to Mr. M… I think it’s true what he said, "Pray hard"… and I believe that. Although, being as human as I am, I forget sometimes to pray that hard. Hearing from another auto-immune chronic illness man, I believe that prayers have served more miracles in life. More than anyone realize.

..but add it with your strong will.

Hey… I went to KL. With court shoes and blazer and all. Limping at some point, trying not to limp at others. Blazing hot sun, risking my health. But hey… you got to do what you got to do. It takes will… a strong will.

For that, I thank God for HIS will on me. It’s HIS will that HE gave me that makes me this strong.

Alhamdullillah!

… i am typing this out. I think it’s that time of the month.

I know it is. So in denial.

Fary is still sick. I miss her. Although, I have not been hanging out with her a lot lately due to the differences of working life… still, knowing that she’s fallen ill has not really made me all chirpy (even though there’s plenty of things to be happy about).

Well.. i’ll be going to KL tomorrow. I hope to meet up Kabir or Nadia there to be my guide around.

Or, alternatively I could go to Wisma Denmark? hmmm… we will see hom the morning goes.

… our 2 years 11th month monthlyversary.

It’s
not easy. In fact, it’s very tough… especially when nothing is
certain. Everything in life is a gamble. Nothing is ever simple.

Today,
we got to watch a movie together (after months of not getting to "date"
like we normally do). We went to watch Goodbye Boys. It’s not a typical
local movie. It’s actually a great show. I hope they send over my
prized vcd in a hurry; I want to watch the movie again.

We
picked up the tickets, had my lunch at A&W, enjoyed the movie and I
met up with the director Bernard Chauly. He’s one great fella. Quite
humble guy. Easy to talk with. It’s a good thing people are these
sorts. I like.

Anyways… after the whole OU movie, I had a good time having dinner with Shahril at Wang Solo!!
I found the place (with help and calls to Azreena) and had my share of
ayam. It was so good that it made me feel so bloated afterwards. But I
feel good.

Thank you sayang… for the good times we had today.
I remember now why we stick for as long as we do… because you love
me, despite your playboyishness…. With me, you are trying to make
things sparkle again. I should let you try….

Honestly, today I
was suppose to go out with my parents.. but, it seems as though that
didn’t happen. So, I have to go with them tomorrow. Monday is my hectic
schedule. Pagi pi office…by 10am kena pi HUKM for physiotheraphy…
then, come back by 2pm to the office. I might drop by BAR COUNCIL to
get my borang 1, 2 and 3… then I go back to the office.

For all the things I have right now, I am truly greatful Ya Allah.

Thank you for my family
Thank you for my friends
Thank you for my stable health
Thank you for my current job…
Thank you for preserving this relationship
Thank you for letting me PUASA esok…
Thank you for the minimum wealth

Alhamdullillah and thank you.

To all the Muslims.. SELAMAT BERPUASA!!

…having chips and dips.

Went to a Demonstration for the lips thing yesterday with Sri, Zuzu and Nadia. It was so nice to get together with gal pals.

Honestly,
yesterday’s event made me feel a little "blonde". Not to say it means I
feel stupid, but… made me realize I like to do what blondes do for
fun which may actually look stupid to brunettes or black hair people
(i.e. to others laa)

As the demonstration went on and the
"recognition" for the staffs went on in the small yet lively office, I
realize that this was the kind of thing that will start a rally of
"Snap Cup" etc. etc. etc..

Alaa… if you watch Legally Blonde
2, you’d understand. Nevertheless, I think this event was something I
enjoy. I dunno about the rest of the team that came to the
demonstration.

This event was actually hosted by Sri’s
mother-in-law-to-be. I learned how to make "spinach dip" for chips from
Datin. It’s amazing stuff! I’m gonna try it one of this days. Sour
Cream, cut spinach and Campbell Chicken Stock.

About the company
I came with? Well… Zuzu has been so busy that I don’t see her online
anymore. I don’t think she’s even reading this blog I am posting up.
Sri, the main head of the abducting us all to this event… evil, but I
enjoyed it in the end. Nadia, well… she’s just one good sport (who is
actually sick, tau!)

Later that evening, Sri and I went to
Coffee Hut where we did some good one-to-one catching up with each
other. This girl has tweaked herself (you could also use the word
pimped) to being a lady. She has changed gradually over the years. The
Sri I know has grown up to be the lady of any man’s dream… and that
lucky man had to be Azrain.

Zuzu had to go home to watch
"Desperate Housewives" and Nad had to bail… probably she was feeling
ill or had other pending matters to attend to.

In anyways, I had fun yesterday. Being Legally Blonde.

Time to go to work… it’s almost 7:45am. This is the diary of a blonde chambering student.

I’m sure many have heard the expression, "ada wang, semua jadi…"
(With money, you can do anything). Although it is true… I am here to
say that there are things which money simply cannot do in our lives…
things for which everyone tak perasan and don’t take notice, living in
a materialistic world.

The first in my list… the age old saying, Money cannot buy friendship.
Simply
because, we are priceless. Can you put a price to a friendship you
build together for weeks, months or even years? Trust… Love…
Time… these are the things Money just cannot buy.

Today, after work at about 6pm onwards… I met up with Idan for the first time, catch up with Laila and made closer relationship with Tootee and Wadi (abang Misai as he is known…) Of course, I spent time eating my dinner with my darling Nadia whilst waiting for their arrival and also have a good couple time with my boyfriend Shahril Nizam.

What
money does here…? Well, it bought me dinner and drinks for myself and
my friends. But imagine if there was no one to eat dinner with, can money magically buy me friends to eat with me…? Does the food taste as good? Will money buy me conversations with people?

Maybe
to hypocrites, I will get conversations if I had lots of money and was
rich. But, I know rich people who are so humble and I am very kagum
with them. They are true and non hypocrites.

Money cannot buy my friendship. Period .

(Listening to Elnino by Tata young on flyfm now…)

Next… money can buy me a watch but never time.
Check your watch. What watch are you wearing? No matter what brand is your wristwatch, can any amount of money buy you time??

No.. it can’t.

All
that aside, I think money helps make things easier. To buy dinner. To
buy a house. To buy drinks. To buy books. To buy a computer even…

But..
it doesn’t satisfy ones hunger, it’s a house not a home, not a quench
thirst solution, not real knowledge and not real smarts of computer.

Money… the conflict of it. Good or bad? I let you decide.

(Fergie - London Bridge now on Flyfm)

Thankx
to my friends I met up after work. You made a good end to my weekday.
It was nice to meet you Idan and I’m sure we’ll meet up lagi. Laila..
you will always be a ball of cute fluff… Tootee and Wadi… ehem2
jangan lupa kita ye nanti… My sayang, thankx for the teman… and
darling Nadia, i wuv you…

The gelak tawa of our table today, will always be priceless…

Can Money buy my love? No. (Angguk2 Geleng2 - Ahli Fiqir on flyfm…)

…and other things had
happened during the absence of me and the blogging world. (by the way,
I’m hooked on Flyfm for obvious reasons…)

Anyways, Monday was
interesting… I had a good day at work and ditemani my boyfriend for
lunch. It’s good to have him around when I am having my break. Although
I may be a little tad tired and not able to layan him like my usual
self…

Tuesday.. met up with Rahman. aww… we had dinner at
Secret Recipe. It was good to be connecting with him again. I miss the
times I was close to my ttdi friends. Those real friends laa… not
those hyprocrites.

Wednesday… I had Sakae Sushi.
See… I have people to bring me out to go makan2… I have my Nadia
who understands me as much as I understands her.. I hope we don’t get
too close for comfort.

Met up with Juan (kebetulan) and Diba at
the Curve… He was actually taking photos of the blue lights at the
pavement of The Curve. Something he has to do for his work.

(I am still listening to FLYFM. Dengar laaa.. best…!)

Anyways..
after that, we went to coffee hut. Met up Fary and the rest. I had good
clean fun and laughter. Met up with Anja, Shiela, Nadia’s cousin,
Mukris, the other guys too…. Came back all tired of laughing! hihi…

"Harus bangkit semula… sehingga hatiku teruja" (guess the song… yes Ella - Teruja)

… today, I was trying my luck. I am happy to announce that I won something.

I like these songs….

***where u go – fort minor feat holly brook and
jonah matranga* sexyback – Justin timberlake* you and your hands – pink* Hero – Nickelback (Chad Kroeger feat Josey
Scott)* Come with me – P Diddy feat Nicole Pussycat* Put your money where your mouth is – Jet* Unfaithful
– Rihanna* Hate me – Blue October* Sexy love – ne-yo* Pemenang – Sheila
on 7* Hey Ma – Camron*  Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol*** 

… and I love Nadia.

"Pisces
They say that haste makes waste,
but you should move as quickly as you need to."

this is the diary of a chambie…. SK

…for the whole two days with me. I really appreciate your efforts.

You helped me round up some friends for the event… For that, I thank you for terfikirkan Khairie semalam. You know me, being all secretive, I just don’t know who to tell or call up. Blur giler me ok…!

You helped to be there to make sure I am continously macho… you don’t know this, but when I have you around, I feel I must not be sappy…. wakaka… weird kan?

I like having you around by my side, but I hope I don’t suffocate your space because I wuv you. These two days was really tiring for me, but I am thankful and cannot thank you enough for sticking by me… walaupun I know you are getting restless over waiting.

Thank you juga for calling up Nelli and Abang Pajli. Today was a success there at the shopping complex sebab ada you guys. You completed the project for me.

Although, my real tunjang belakang is my parents and my sister (who took a break from her mooting schedule to come over and do the project), but I am thankful juga for Nadia.

You sweet thang!