Me, MYSeLF & i…

…married woman now.

Congratulations to Encik Azrain Ahmad & Puan Sri Indah Rini…
28th December 2006 will be your official Anniversary Day.

I wish both of you all the happiness that life can offer. Semoga berkekalan ke anak-cucu, dengan izin handak-Nya.

Azrain, take care of Sri baik2. I know you will… I can see it in your actions that you really do love Sri…

Sri, CONGRTULATIONS again. Your transformation from a single-ton woman to a wife was very touching. I was about to cry that night - of happiness.

You look so relieve and so happy. I tumpang gembira.

May you have all the blessings in this life together as Husband & Wife!

…today.

Today, I had to go to Sessions Court KL to do a file search.

I went to Block A (on the side of Wisma Kraftangan), and found out that the file I want to search is in Block B!

I’m walking… and walking.

I reached Block B. Met Shue. She was kind enough to teman me all the way to TINGKAT 5!! Thank you girl.

I can only get the file next year (next week.. I’m just being draamtic). Ok… memang CHAMPION!

But, before I went to search for the file, I received a call from office. They ask me if I am willing and able to check on the status of a certain case that we are appealing on. Ingredients needed here is that grounds of judgement or notes of evidence or yada-yada-yada!

Ok… I walked with Shue all the way to RKKK (all the way to the other end… across Straits Building) and met up Mr M.

Had a good time chatting with Mr. M. He was as usual the most charming man there. Ouh… he told me that the file I was searching for (the one I got a call from office) is not in that area. I have to head to WISMA DENMARK!!

(Mind you, that’s not in the surrounding area! It’s either I go with dad, get a cab or LRT to Dang Wangi… walking will not get me there.)

Called dad three times, he didn’t answer.

I had to use my brain and work it out fast. I calculated that I HAVE to be there before 12pm. If I come later, the place might be closed and it will be a waste of my efforts.

So, as I was thinking, I was letting my feet walk me all the way to Masjid Jamek LRT. Little did I know that my feet (with a pair of very uncomfortable shoes) had actually decided to take the LRT instead.

So, I had crossed the bridge and got to Masjid Jamek. A totally different route from the beginning to RKKK but equally of distance.

I had to cross the road and get to the right LRT terminal. Got my ticket and arrived safely to Dang Wangi (just satu station to get there).

Arrived at Wisma Denmark, where I met Nadirah in a very sweet pink baju kurung. We didn’t stay and chat for long as I am pretty much lost and need to get the work done.

Dad called when I was in the lift; asking where to pick me up. I told him Wisma Denmark. I didn’t get to finish explaining that I was not yet done, he had hung up.

He arrived at Wisma Denmark when I was trying to get the information from the ground floor level. I guess, he saw me waving (not yet laa dad), and he had to make one BIG round.

By the time I came out, he was not there. Called him but as usual, he didn’t answer. Ouh well… I waited.

When he came, I went straight to work. Too tired and I know that my dad was too pissed to talk to me (yet, I know it’s not my fault. I called didn’t I? I tried to explain too… Sigh. Parents ALWAYS right.), I decided to remain quiet the whole ride back.

Ouh.. by the by.. the judge who had gave judgement for the case I was suppose to check on status had actually been transfered to Bahagian Dagang! Which was in KL… the area I came from! The secretary of Wisma Denmark Sivil Court had asked me to write a letter to that judge & court instead.

Everyone chime in NOW –

Waste of ENERGY & TIME!

Ouh well… at least I got to meet up with Shue and Nadirah.

Now, I’m tired and I am not chatting with anyone because I know I will whine. If I do whine, people would tell me that they are equally tired… and honestly, today… I don’t want to hear that from ANYONE.

I wanna be selfish… but I know no one wants to listen.

So.. I blog this out.

Sri… In about 24 hours ++ you will change your status to…

PUAN SRI INDAH RINI

(I am so excited for you… envious but excited. R u as excited?)

I pray that everything goes smoothly on that night. Will be there with my camcorder!

~~~***~~~

Time for my annual New Year’s Resolution.

Lets
start with the countdowns… this year, I’m getting to the bottom of my
resolution and try to make realistic… although, more is better than
less I should think.

1. Movies : 25 next year
(Money and time constrain!)

2. Books : 20
(Will try to do more reviews)

3. Case reviews : 50 + at least one article a week from newspapers OR online journals.
(This is for my own advancement in career… sampai bila nak buta cases!)

4. SLE awareness campaign : at least 3 times
(I’m going to try and be more involved in that organization… will contact Swee Lian more)

5. Friend/Long lost meets : once every month = 12 meets
(Again… the time constrain!)

6. Moneytary target : let’s put it as enough to save for my left leg’s operation!
(This needs to be done before September! At least contribute half of the costs…)

7. Win more MONEY & MOVIE TICKETS.
(It doesn’t hurt if I win a house along the way.. hihi…)

8. Fights with Shahril : hopefully reduced to none.
(I HAVE to try and make him understand that I DON’T enjoy fighting…)

Well…
that’s my resolutions so far. As for bloggings, I will try to blog once
in awhile when I feel that no one out there has the need to hammer me.
As for photos… that’s a must (regardless of past experience) but this
time, I limit it to only certain number of friends.

Above all my countdown list… I will try to :-
Be a better Muslimah.
Be the daughter my parents want me to be… not that easy though. I am sooooooooo prone to make mistakes!
Be the sister that my one and only sister can lean on.
Be a stress free girl. Balance my working life and social life…
Be a girl of any boyfriend’s dreams. I am going to try and recapture that magical moments together.
Be more stern with my decisions - LEARN TO SAY NO!
Always be sweet but strong. Don’t you dare think this smile belongs to a weak person!
Be a friend to my dearest friends… you guys & gals know who you are.

and

BE THE MOST ADORABLE & LOVEABLE PERSON to MYSELF!

I’m
going to be ME… regardless of whatever people may say of me. Yang
penting, those who knows me, knows I am not like what the judgemental
people think of me.

Biarlah if they think I am sombong, garang, lunatic, an idiot… whatever laa..

As
long as my parents, sister, Shahril, and my handful of friends know
what I am made of, I will not let the rest just shoot me down. Biarlah
they say I’m proud (bongkak), I will prove to them that I am strong on
my own with no help of their "bright" criticism.

Look out 2007… you will see more of me everywhere.

(even on television! hiihihiii…)

~~~***~~~

*winks*.

HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY, Shahril Nizam Abd Karim…

a.k.a. Slayer Player
a.k.a. Baby Boy
a.k.a. Tun Ali (from Bangsawan Tun Fatimah play)

Do you know how much you mean to me? I can never quantify the love and true meaning of you to me… but lets just put it as a whole lot of love and meaning of you in my life.

Today, 22nd December 2006, marks your 27th birthday. Your 4th birthday celebration with moi. So far, I had 2 surprise gathering party for you. I am happy of it too.

This year, my friends couldn’t make it. The ones from UiA laa.. and also some ttdi kids. Why? Because I planned the thing at thevery last minute. The reason being is that I don’t know if I’ll be having the celebration in the first place kerana my sayang has to work from 12am to 8am… and at usual times, I don’t like to tire him unnecessarily. (But I would still love to have a celebration with him)

Finally worked it out. I picked up the cake from Megat Fadli Izmir’s house. His mom bakes the most wicked moist choc cake I’ve ever tasted! Disukai ramai tuh…

Slack.. My two close girls aren’t around. Nadia & Fary are both not in Malaysia.

Kabir? Well, he said he had a wedding or sthing laa… so, he couldn’t make it either.

As for Sri.. she decided to catch movie with Fiancee… why am I not surprised? hihiii… It’s sokay.

Fatiha was greating Deveraj and the geng in Soul’d Out, Hartamas.

So, it was me, Shahril, Syahrun and Haz which was accompanied by Nana. Haz gotten my man bday present. That’s a good thing for my sayang and Syahrun. Dua-dua pun main the gift tadi.

The past few days were rather tiring but satisfying. The more and more the days go by, the more intrigued I am to know the out come of the next year. What’s certain, the curse of the dogs in this year is coming to an end..!

Whatever it is… I just wanna say that my sayang is now 27 years old… and we’ve been together for 3 years and 2 months. I love you sayang, Lets hope everything goes fine with us.

Love,
Sarah kambali

…at this particular moment.

I’m suppose to be reading two files and do a draft letter at this instant.. but I’ve been working throughout lunch so, now I am taking my break.

The whole day, I’ve been listening to this random selection of Malay songs that I had burn in a CD long time ago. Then, I came across songs sung by Nurul&Ajai and also Erra&Yusri. As I was listening to the songs, I feel as though the song’s meaning has been robbed.

Both of them are no longer together and the songs that they sung was about how deep their love,affection and relationship was. Listening to the songs made me wonder, how far can a relationship last throughout the test of time at the present time?

Only time will tell….

Do i?

Maybe I do…

when I explain, I nag.

When I try to make you understand, I nag…

You know what? I haven’t look into the meaning of nag in the dictionary… but I know it’s the same as "membebel" in Malay. So, that means I’ve been trying to explain something over and over again?

Hmm… as I recall, that was the one and only time I was explaining in great length of what I want to tell you. But you say I nag?

I NAG??

Like Beyonce said in her OST song fro Dreamgirls… "I’m not stoping myself because you are not or won’t listen."

So, is it the fact that you’re not listening to what I am saying, OR I really am a nag??

WAY TO GO! POUR SOME MORE OIL INTO THE FIRE…

You memang PANDAI pujuk.. I NAG…

…from my boss today… He needed to get something from me… sampai sekarang tak ambil.

From Monday til Friday, I feel that time has defeated me. So many things planned and work was being a little bogged down on me. Not complaining… just a statement that there’s LOTS of work to do and I just add pressure on myself most of the time. Better to over stress than under stress… pressure.

Anyways… weekend came. But, it was (and still) not as serine as it is suppose to be. Everyone I know is either sleeping or enjoying their weekend. Me? I am still doing work as we speak.

Friday; I had 3 files to be brought home. One of which is a file my boss had asked me to keep so that he can take it on Saturday night (which didn’t happen) or Sunday morning (tak happen jugak!).

The other two files : one is a conveyancing file. I have to draft Sale & Purchase Agreement (S&P), Deed of Receipt and Reassignment (DRR) AND Deed of Assignment (DOA). Not that simple. I’ve done the S&P… now drafting DRR and DOA.

The other file is a file I have to do research on because the case is on this Wednesday. Need to do a skeletal for my boss. I have still not done a thing there.

On FRIDAY itself I came back home at 1am. No.. not from office… my aunty-cousin of my dad’s side had akad nikah at their house. Congratulations Johana & Zulkifli.

It was fun… but I couldn’t help thinking that I still have work at home. I have a problem. I can’t enjoy ANYTHING as long as I got work pending. I would be thinking about the work… ish

Came back at 1am because mom, sis and myself had to help for the preparation the next day… the wedding reception.

Saturday… my friend had a makan-makan/giving wedding card petang. I had a wedding reception. We were all there from 12pm til 7pm! We couldn’t leave because we were actually the usherer. Lama oooo…..

But it was good. I was stress free… I gave up to think about work. When it was time to go back home, I became a little edgy… Why? I know I have to do my work.

Still, came back.. got dress and plastered a smile on my face and met up Sri at Secret Recipe. It was so good to meet up with my darling Sri. She was simply glowing with happiness. I can tell she was jittery but happy jugak!

Hahahaaa…. I’m SOOOOO happy for her!

CONGRATULATIONS SRI.. I’m going to come with my camera and video to your akad and wedding. I love you girl. I hope and pray for your happiness.

I don’t show people my affection… I don’t how to. Usually if I do, it would suffocate. But I am proud, happy and love my friends who has always been there.

Sri.. I am so happy for you. That’s why I still try my best to make it semalam, even though I know my sister’s too tired to send and Shahril is tired of not enough sleep… and I got work to do.

Love is an expression that only fool cannot read…

… yes, your full name.

Did anyone miss my bloggings? I doubt… Just a blimp in the community’s eyes. Nothing much to it kan? Anyways…

I can’t thank you enough for everything that you have done for me, dear friend.

I’m so sorry that our favourite coffee wasn’t around… but I promise that the next time it comes around, I would be treating you to that favourite coffee of yours & mine.

Sometimes, as we catch up with all friends, there’s a cliche of that moment with all those movies and dramas we watch on the big screen or even the television shows.

Honestly, I am not a cold person. In fact, I usually make up excuses for people who are dear to my heart. I try to understand other people’s needs and situations… that’s why I don’t pester about their time to spend with me or even their efforts.

Because good friends are there even if you don’t meet that person…

Once in awhile, an sms comes about… or a "smile" in friendster… or even a short testimonial asking "how are you?" or "how’s life treating you?"… shows that you’re still thinking of that person. Even a forwarded email just shows that you are flooding that person’s inbox with "I am actually thinking of you"…

I understand the hectic life of people and how geography has beaten me to spend time with those in KL… but do people truly understand me? That’s a question that still is left unanswered… or so I would to think that way, rather than jumping into harsh conclusions.

Driving is not something I can do yet. So those in KL have to suffice with either picking me up or just accept I can’t make it to their raya/birthdays/celebration of promotion/ KLCC sales/ etc.. etc.. etc.. Don’t go blowing up to me saying that you have slaved over a stove for me and expect me to come, when logically it is quite impossible for me to make it out UNLESS there’s a clear transport out and back home.

You blow up to me, it’s kind of hard for me to forgive OR even forget. So, I’m sorry if you feel awkward towards our friendship after that… I just can’t accept a person who cannot understand or even accept what I am.

Soon, insya-Allah.. God-willing, I will get that driving license and a car. Hopefully by next year.

Tonight, Kabir… a guy I’ve known during my university years have yet again showed me the blessings of having a friend. He is among those that I know I don’t want to loose in anyway… (Yes, I have a list of people who are very dear in my heart… and they will always be there NO MATTER what. Even if they don’t know about it.)

At times (and most of the time) I am a VERY sensitive person. Words hurt me more than the physical pain that I endure in my hips or my health. I don’t do good with criticsm… but, after a while when I analyse once more, I know that I was somewhat in a wrong and will take it as a constructive critiscm to build myself to be a better person.

What Kabir has made me realize that I just miss being carefree like a student. It’s not that I have a lousy job or a busy working life that I can’t cope with… I just miss being with my friends. Making time for them and them having time for leisure as well.

Although TTDI is a part of KL… but it’s not KL.

I have the perks of working somewhere near my home, I can go back at the earliest 5:30pm and be back by 5:40pm without jam of KL. I have an internet connection and a hell of a cool boss… but, I am still somewhat not like the rest.

Am i complaining? No… but I wish that I don’t see the grass is greener working in KL. (9 months, Sarah… Just that 9 months… then you see what you do and how your health and family takes it from there.)

I chose this job near to home so that I would be able to work without being nagged upon about my health. Albeit the fact that those close in this family says that IF i have to work in KL, they would just have to let me go… but I know that less than a month in KL, I would have to resign.

Negative points? I’m just so far away from people I know.

Yes, tonight I had fun catching up with a friend from uni. Kabir… you made me want to blog this out. Why? because I am greatful for the time you had chose to spend with me; albeit the fact that it’s SO out of your way to come TTDI.

Haha… I like the "rumour" that might be spread across the office. Do let me know about it, ya?

Thank you Kabir.

& also thankx to those who has been there all this while with me, keeping me company and giving me morale support. I pray for your happiness…

I miss you all. Soon. We’ll meet up soon.