Relapse. SLE. I’m Sick Again.
"Sarah, you got 0.57 protein leakage and your albumin has dropped to 29. This is a full blown relapsed. We have to start you back on Metaprad (steroid injections)… and you have to come back tomorrow and Sunday for Metaprad. Selama ni, your stability was at 0.01 and albumin count at 42.
Did something happened? Are you stressed? Over-worked?"
A conversation with my doctor today, Dr. Rozita. After that statement of full blown relapse, I kinda gone into my "happy place", which ironically was very sad.
I had anticipated this to happen actually… and God loves me to continuously make me stay in this world to actually let me suffer with infections after operation that He brought forward my operation.
Had I done my operation in this condition, it would have been a tougher recovery with possible late wound healing and terrible infections!
Funny… how I felt when she said this was a full blown relapse. Nothing funny… but I never thought I would brake down and cry as when they diagnosed I was with kidney failure 3 years back.
Funny how my parents, especially mum, is acting strong about it… when right after the diagnose she is now ill with flu and cough.
So… no operation… and now trying to re-stabilize my condition.
"Sarah… full blown relapse…"
Ouh… and funny that Richard had to call about a file. I can recall the file… the utmost "non-difficult" file there is. But the doctors were there to consult on my medication pills (which costs RM7.90 a pill).
I feel like giving up… but emotionally, there’s so many people counting on me getting well. One day at a time again I guess…
Honestly, I am trying to be positive… but somewhere in my mind and body is not all for being positive.
Sarah… you got full blown relapse.
La la la la…
November 30th, 2007 at 5:53 am
I read this… i’ll pray & hope you will get well soon! dun try, u must always be positive. tata for now. -Aidil.